William C. Morris Award Finalist: Best Young Adult Debut of the Year Best YA Books of 2016-Entertainment Weekly Fall 2016 Flying Starts-Publishers Weekly Best Books of 2016-Children's Book Council Books Best Teen Coming-of-Age Novels of 2016-Kirkus Reviews Best Teen Books of 2016 with Unforgettable Protagonists-Kirkus Reviews 22 of Our Most Anticipated LGBTQ YA Books of the Second Half of 2016- Barnes and Noble Booksellers Here Is Your Ultimate YA Book Gift Guide For 2016-BuzzFeed Books The 100 Best Books of the Year-Globe and Mail All Pen wants is to be the kind of girl she's always been. So why does everyone have a problem with it? They think the way she looks and acts means she's trying to be a boy-that she should quit trying to be something she's not. If she dresses like a girl, and does what her folks want, it will show respect. If she takes orders and does what her friend Colby wants, it will show her loyalty. But respect and loyalty, Pen discovers, are empty words. Old-world parents, disintegrating friendships, and strong feelings for other girls drive Pen to see the truth-that in order to be who she truly wants to be, she'll have to man up.